Angry Erinne =(

Who's Erinne? She's a lovely little 4 year old girl that used to run excitedly around me and shout, "Gan Die (Godpa)! Gan Die (Godpa)!" at the top of her voice. Like any other kids, a pure source of joy to the adults that she surrounds. =)

Like a little lotus that has started to bloom, her actions used to unfold with lots of love and with the purest intention. Such pureness that she used to look right into my eyes and say, "Gan Die, i like you very much!" and hearing that, my face of course, will beam with joy. Not only that, she used to giggle and laugh a lot with everyone around.

All these started to change about 2, 3 months back. She became easily irritable, frustrated. She started to say unkind words and insisted on doing things that will irritate people around her and she really surprised me today. She did not look directly at me and she kept saying how angry is she with her home, the people at home and even now, how angry she is with everything that is happening at this very moment. It saddens me to see how such a wonderful girl like her can be so wrapped up with anger.

I recalled having a conversation with my buddy WC about some of his worries once his son is born. It seems that his worries were not unfounded and it is unfolding right before him bit by bit everday. You see, Erinne is used to having all the attention from her parents and grandparents since she was the only grandchild of the family back then. Now that her newborn brother has come into this world, she no longer commands the full attention of the family. It is little wonder that she will feel insecure and fearful that she is no longer loved.

I hope one day, the dear little girl will realise her brother is not here to snatch her parents' love away but is here to share the joy of life with her. All i can do now is to remind my buddy to be more endearing to her. To find within himself a greater inner strength to show more patience and understanding in times like this. Hopefully this will help to water the seeds of goodness in her and she will grow out of all these negative thoughts soon.